lackadaisical05

I think...

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Sun, 19 Oct 2008 07:22:00 GMT

just maybe...

possibly...

the pity party might be over

...but don't quote me on that.

Gotta be some kind of world record though, a 4 year party, wow.

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Sun, 19 Oct 2008 05:52:21 GMT

so I'm in Deland until Monday, yay me. As soon as I got here my parents went out of town. Lame.

I'm mostly here to visit my friend who just graduated from the Marines, but he has no cell phone right now since he just got out of boot camp, so finding him is proving to be a bit difficult, who would have thought I couldn't find someone in Deland? It is supposed to be a small town.

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Fri, 17 Oct 2008 01:28:43 GMT

so for this class I'm taking (child development) we have to go through this software program called my virtual child. It gives you choices on how to parent and stuff, and shows you pictures of your children at different ages. This is a picture (unedited I swear) of my child at 6 years old.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v245/phoenixreborn05/kid.jpg

Discuss

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Thu, 09 Oct 2008 00:12:59 GMT

so I got A's on all four of my exams...yay me

I also bought a cat harness and leash for Artemis today, she chased lizards around the yard and had a great time, not so much actual walking took place though, I am trying to figure out how to train her...

Sam bought her a lazer, she is so spoiled...

Also if I'm doing so well in school, and I really like my new job, why am I still feeling so lonely and sad? I think that I'm going to go to the movies tonight, by myself. I have never done that. I wish I knew how to make friends, I think that I forgot after high school.

hey Jody

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Mon, 06 Oct 2008 22:19:31 GMT

check out this link

it is so freaking awesome

if I had a lot of dollars I would buy it for you

http://spippo.deviantart.com/art/My-Little-Edward-Scissorhands-94823000

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Sat, 04 Oct 2008 00:50:38 GMT

I made iced pumpkin cookies last night, the house smelled like pumpkins. They turned out more like little cakes, but very very yummy.

I have been bitten by the baking bug...and the alliteration ant. haha I laugh at my own jokes.

Butterflies apparently take up a ton of time...

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Wed, 01 Oct 2008 00:25:21 GMT

I find it extremely ironic when people yell at you for something and then turn around and do it to you, even if it is years later.

on an unrelated note: I need your new address Jody, so that I can send you things and then have you not check your mail.

my kitten is a whole 3 pounds now, yay kitten, she has also started cutting her adult teeth, which means she bites a lot...very hard.

Also I'm wondering why it has taken my GRE test prep book more than a month to get here (it is still not here) when I ordered it from Amazon, isn't amazon supposed to be reliable?

Does anyone know of a very good apple crisp recipe? cooler weather makes me want to bake things. I am making chili tonight.

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Tue, 16 Sep 2008 19:42:20 GMT

so the other day my kitten fell off the ledge. I have a loft apartment and the top story overlooks the bottom story. It is like a 15 foot drop and I try not to let her up on the ledge to begin with, but she got up there and then I thought she'd balance cause she's a cat. No such luck, she apparently hasn't mastered the "cats can balance" idea since she is still a baby. She fell off and landed on my coffee table with a very loud THUD! I freaked out and checked her over but she seemed ok. I have been watching her for a few days and she is still fine. Cats are resilient. Scared the crap out of me though.

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Wed, 20 Aug 2008 23:49:02 GMT

so I finally quit Subway. After two years I'm only making $7.75 and that is just pathetic. My new job is going to START me at 7.75 and give me a raise in January. See subway? That is how you handle employees! Reward them for staying with the company and doing a good job. Anyway so after being with all these people for two years and making friendships and all, what do my managers and half my coworkers do when they hear that I put in my two weeks? They give me the silent treatment. Literally. Didn't say two words to me all day. It was so childish and pathetic and it really made me feel great about leaving. Seriously if you are so pathetic as to not even say good luck or even to ask me why I'm leaving then that is your own problem.

it just bugs me when people prove themselves to be as terrible as I believe that people are. I didn't used to assume that all people suck, but nowadays I just can't help it. People mostly all suck.

everyone say awww!

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Tue, 12 Aug 2008 22:21:31 GMT

this is my new kitten, I think her name will be Meera, but I haven't quite decided 100%

suggestions?

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Wed, 06 Aug 2008 03:43:59 GMT

I spent one day in Deland with Sam to get my permanent license plate...to the tune of $230 (ouch!)

Then we went to Ikea in Orlando...it was SOOOOOO awesome! I can't even begin to say how cool the store was. We got a coffee table, a lamp, and two mirrors that are like wavy and look awesome together. All for cheaps! All of it cost like $90. Ikea rocks and everyone should go.

nostalgia

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 22:32:47 GMT

I had a dream that I was watching Eddie play football last night, then I read people's journals and it seems like this summer is a summer of nostalgia so I guess I'm right on target. However, I think that for the most part high school relationships are best left buried. Digging them up just causes all these weird emotions and disruptions in our otherwise ok lives. You find out that someone is dating someone and screwing someone else, someone is still dating someone that screwed someone else, someone is going to screw you in more ways than one, etc. None of that is too fun sounding in my opinion. But maybe I'm just biased because my last year of high school was so horrendous that it caused me to attempt suicide and emotionally spiral downward for the next two years. Maybe that's just me.

I saw this commercial for a tv show that takes all your high school classmates when you're like 40 and puts you all on an island together and I shuddered in horror. That would be such a nightmare come true. Some bitches would die I know that much.

So this is a public service announcement I guess, if someone hasn't talked to you since high school, why start now? Why are THEY starting now, after so long? Why weren't you important enough to talk to back then but are suddenly so interesting now? Ask yourself why you want to talk to them. Is it pure nostalgia? curiosity? rekindling a relationship that probably died for good reason? an attempt to recapture days gone by when you were young and didn't have to pay rent? Or is it the sheer terror of impending college graduation and the ever-present threat of entering the "real world" that is scaring you to death? Try also to remember how you felt about this person when you were forced to be around them every day of your life and not how you feel about them now. Was the person a total bitch/asshole to you? Did they cheat off of you (or ON you?) Did they shun your for a "better" group of friends? Did they somehow ruin your life? Did they annoy the hell out of you? Did they leave nasty messages in your yearbook? Did they stand you up at prom? Did they repeatedly lie to your face? Did they ever make you cry? If you answered yes to any of these questions do yourself a favor and just say NO to reopening a can of worms best left sealed in a time capsule somewhere. People don't change, if they were a backstabbing lying cheating asshole/bitch then they probably still are now. And if you've already made the mistake of making contact, put a stop to it asap, for your own good. Engage in retail therapy if needed. Call your real friends, go out and do something fun, try to remember why your life now is awesome (no curfew!) instead of why your life back then was so much better.

Also if you have one of the rare "good" relationships with old high school buddies (Eddie, Sean, Jody) keep it, hold on to it, cherish it. This person is special and you need them in your life. Thanks for being my bestest best friend Jody, love ya girl.

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 21:46:45 GMT

1 year 10 months yesterday! yay!

final grades are in

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Sun, 04 May 2008 04:34:54 GMT

consensus is that I got straight A's! yay!

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Fri, 18 Apr 2008 01:41:14 GMT

I am in a GOOD mood!

I had a dream last night that I had to go to some formal dinner thing with my sister and we got out all my old prom dresses and I still fit into them! Not only fit but fit better than I did before and the dresses themselves looked much more amazing too. It was a great dream. Sam didn't get why, but I'm sure the girls out there do.

because I feel like bragging about it

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Sat, 05 Apr 2008 03:30:33 GMT

the grades on my last six or so tests starting with the most recent:
94
90.5
90
100
100
95

...go...me!

just to give everyone a nice warm fuzzy feeling

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 02:10:31 GMT

yeorga: I'm not blaming you
yeorga: I'm just saying that I have other things now
yeorga: you're not my only friend
G: Indeed. There are many plates, all of which need attending to
G: You're my only friend
yeorga: no I'm not
yeorga: you have like fifty times more friends than I have
G: And I know their collective net worth to the dime
yeorga: I never said I wouldn't see the movie with you ever
G: But you, you're different
G: Worthless

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Tue, 04 Mar 2008 17:31:54 GMT

pet fees suck. So much for that ferret idea.

they charge $250 and $25 a month for a pet, even if it is in a cage (except for birds) why not birds!? Birds are really dirty and they have a lot of dander and stuff too. Whatever, why does having a pet have to be so expensive?

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Mon, 04 Feb 2008 03:13:55 GMT

Sean, that was probably the best football game I've ever seen in my whole life. Go Giants!

Just a little bragging...

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Tue, 11 Dec 2007 02:09:55 GMT

so I got my final grades (all except for Spanish)

Applied Behavioral Analysis: 198/200 total points
Personality Psychology: 196/200 total points
Psychology of Suicide: 509/500 total points (extra credit in there)

so three A+'s! yay!

Hope everyone elses finals are going well for them.

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Mon, 03 Dec 2007 07:29:29 GMT

So I was browsing cuteoverload.com just now (an adorable website if you aren't familiar) and I found something that made me laugh... http://kittywigs.com

check out the electric blue one, it's amazing.

gator growl and the game

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Tue, 06 Nov 2007 01:30:23 GMT

so gator growl was awesome. out of 44,000 people there guess who sat right next to me! Billy Biferie "all growed up" I mean, I knew he went to UF but I'd never seen him here, it was just odd. He looks a lot better than in middle school. Then lynyrd skynyrd played a 12 minute long rendition of freebird and that was awesome.

I went to my very first ever gator football game with Sam on Saturday. Homecoming yay. We kicked Vandy's ass and it was pretty fun. I got a sunburn on a quarter of my face because the sun only hit me on one side and I had a visor on. So now I look weird. But it's ok, I've had a good weekend. How about you?

I'm going to complain now

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Tue, 23 Oct 2007 04:01:01 GMT

I haven't had a cell phone for two weeks now because my charger fell out in Dougs car and is now in Deland where I am not. A friend of mine took pity and let me charge my phone with his car charger on Saturday, Sunday I call Doug and he still hasn't brought it to my parents, and they are camping in Ocala, 20 minutes away from here and mom says even if they did have the charger they wouldn't bring it to me because they have the kids. *sigh*

Anyway, so with my one sweet day of having a phone again I decide to call Jody since I promised I would and because she's been calling all week and I couldn't call her. She is shopping and pretty much does to me what I do to people when I'm shopping, "yeah" "uh-huh" etc. I tell her it's ok and that I'll go and she says that she'll call me back when she gets back from the store. So I keep my phone on all night (thereby losing all of said precious battery, damn Nextels won't hold a charge) and she never called back :-(

so for all of you out there trying to call me (all one or two of you) my phone is dead until
A) Doug gives my charger to my parents and they mail it to me
B) my friend charges it for me again
C) I grow wings and fly over to walmart to buy myself a new one.

I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired...

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Fri, 19 Oct 2007 22:20:50 GMT

so the other day I was reading an article in the school newspaper about how bikes should stay off the sidewalk and let the pedestrians walk. If you know anything about UF and how many people are here (bike-less or not) I think that keeping bikes off the sidewalks is almost impossible and I thought to myself "well I don't mind them as long as they don't hit me, and I've never been hit"

Later on that day I'm walking to work through a busy part of campus on the sidewalk in a group of maybe four people and I got HIT by a freaking bike! Now besides the irony in this situation my wrist got caught in her handlebars because she hit me in the back on the right side with the left side of her bike and then kept going! My wrist was subsequently taken with her and when my body weight counterbalanced it my wrist pulled free from her handlebars and she callously just kept on riding along! It's like hey my wrist could have just broken and it is at least sprained now you dumb bitch who can't drive. So I kept walking to work but my wrist was all red and swollen and my elbow got distended from being snapped in the wrong direction so I was really sore all night while trying to make subs, I also have probably got a bruise on my back.

I hope she doesn't own a car, also, too bad that bikes don't have license plates.

Oh yeah and Jody, I'd love to call you but when I went home last weekend my cell phone charger fell out of my bag in the back of Doug's car on the way back to Gainesville. So my phone=dead now. I will call you when it is alive again.

a bad day

d_rai2070@yahoo.com — Sun, 02 Sep 2007 19:55:17 GMT

So of course on the ONE weekend that I'm home, the ONE day I go out instead of taking care of my mom, to the ONE restaurant for the ONE hour or less it took to eat lunch. I have to run into one of the two people I hate most in the world. OF COURSE. Damnit you ruined my lunch, stupid small town. There with your parents looking all smug. Wearing the same shirt you've worn to church since sixth grade...

Then I got a lecture from Carmen about how I need to forgive and forget and how it shouldn't mean anything to me because she isn't a part of my life anymore and she doesn't mean anything to me. I guess she's right, but it just made for a really crappy day.

I had some "retail therapy" though, so that made me feel a little bit better. I bought this sexy little black dress (that someone with no curves could NEVER pull off haha) that I would probably never have bought if I wasn't feeling so shitty, but it did make me feel better. Carmen brought me some sushi candy from Epcot that was really nice of her, and she bought me some gator shorts. I love her so much, she always knows what to do to help me feel better. (Albeit sushi parties work too Jodes ^.^)

also, Jody I'm sorry I missed your call, Adam was calling me so much I turned my phone off around 12, so I guess I just missed you, I hope you're ok.